2Victoria florentin

work went by a little quick, jeff ate my freakin noodles that i brought thursday so i got mad and rubbed it in his face a lot, haha. it was creamy alfredo freakin ramen noodles. piss me off!

work ends and i go to stevens house, stayed there till about eleven, picked up peter and off to XOXO. min met us up and i saw katie there.. whew! havent seen her in a while :P the rooms were all occupied so we went next door to play cs. i wasnt playing but i got really tired after that... blah, we got a room in less than an hour so off to sing we went.

it didnt seem as fun since everyone was sober ::cough:: and peter seemed a little sick.** we ended up paying five bucks each, and after we all went home.

yeserday i felt sooo happy to see min at work. i told him about the dream i had about that guy that morning. errr, not cool. min made me smile a lot yesterday, it was nice. hehehe.

todaaaaay mik is taking me to work! my parents went to work early and i thought theyd leave me a car but... nope! rejecteed, haha. i have to get ready soon, working at one. no idea whats going on after work, but you know ill post it up later! ( o ^__^) v

woke up late this morning, took me twenty minutes to get ready and set for school. blah! i hate rushing...

theres a debate going on in mr thompsons class, hes craaazy! ;D a few minutes ago i went in to get some powerade in the teachers lounge and ms freakin mahyer told me i cant be in there... man before i graduate i wana bitch her out, haha.

ok enough about school. i wana go karaoke already! weeeeee.

i curled the ends of my hair today, school was regular. i stayed a little longer in the yearbook room so the traffic to go down, but by the time i was in the parking lot it was still a little crowded. i saw ryan chris maynard and jay still in the parking lot and ryan left his keys in the van. tsk tsk, smokers! haha.. so being the skinny-armed girl that i am, i stuck my arm between the side window and opened the door for ryan. as he gave me a hug he had a pen in his mouth and he stabbed my head. ... thats not how you thank someone for unlocking you out of your vehicle! it hurt and i said "aaah i have ink in my braaaain!" haha, yea maybe a little dramatic but it really did hurt getting cut at the scalp with a pen. aaaanyway they all left, after school i got home and picked neil up, then alex came by to help my dad fix the washing machine. from there i left around four to get my mom from work, then jason ong called me up so i was dropped off at meadows to see my darling face.

jt came by, we hung out at my work long enough so we went to go bowling at gold coast. i whooped him in the first game by getting a poo load of strikes (five?), and a total score of 144. the second game i guttered a lot so my average came out to 122 i think? something like that. applebees was next on his mind! we ate there and i just got home. i thought min went out so id call him and say goodnight but i guess he didnt go out. sall good homie! well be singing tomorrow to the bomb beats at the karaoke place. wOoOooo yeEeeaAaaAa!!!

today was dandy, after school min came by and we went to his house and played dress up. hahaha! just kidding, we had fun laughing and tickling each other as always and watched mtv. his sister was fighting with her boyfriend so i felt kinda weird listening to them yell i the other room =/ eeek!**

anyways time flew by again and min dropped me off before he got his mommy at six. my mom was home and she got some baja fresh and i ate while watching the news on the war. bush is throwin down guy, i just pray that all this stuff gets over and done with asap.. its a scary thought but all of us will see how it goes in the end i hope. arrg.

on a cooler note, peter sent me a text message (fwd! ha) saying he got me a gift from china since he came back this weekend. then later on francis called me up and j-tong is here till sunday, woo hoo! maybe ill meet up with them tomorrow if i can. they wanted to play tenis with me today but it was already late and dark so eeh, and plus its flippin windy out there! sandstorm and shiznit. =9

im tired. and i hate math, argy bargy ... min i cant wait to see how the pudding pictures turn out! haha, and the one... yea, that one. hehehe. cuuuute dorky pictures coming soon!

" It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them. " (Christie, Agatha)

found that when i was browsing online during yearbook from this chicks site. very cute, very true =) tra la laaaa. im getting baja fresh tonight and after school mins coming by so we can hang out till whenever. aaaaah thats it for now, im better off staring at the clock till school is out, haha. later hater

itz not the playboy mansion,itz not thugz mansion,itz sicats mansion

invitationz to vivy and eddie/199.99$ per night
min and dana/get your asses to midgets mansion priceless

^ thats sicats info. he just signed online, that little punkass! haha, at least min and i get in for a good ... price? (0__o) haha, ook i need sleep.

yea thats over with, everythings cool. this morning kirsti woke me up and we ate at ihop. i had no plan on ditching but damnit, the wind blew me away >__<

after ihop we went to walmart, got some makeup, went to the atm, gas, galleria. we got some ants at abercrombie and shirts at hollister. we went into the photomania and stayed there fooling around taking pictures until one forty? wooo. i picked up my brother, dropped kirsti off, went home for a bit and went to meadows to see min. we hung out, i saw natalie and liz. liz brought her baby and shes soo cute! she has big eyes and she looked so puzzled, it was cute. haha =)

left the mall at five twenty, got my mommy and went to the healing mass at st joes. came home around seven and ate dinner, and i just finished scanning pictures from the galleria (go check them out! click on the march link!!). im getting tired and my hands and forehead still feel oily from the mass. blaah! im tired.

heres some cute profiles:

mins~
da-na (dä`nã)
adj, noun: da-ni-est, da-ni-er
1. adj. Pleasing or attractive in a graceful or delicate way. See synonyms at Beautiful
2. noun. Ability to cause Intense joy or delight.
eX. The Mona Lisa is very dana.
dana ft. min - mesmerize (remix)
[ f e b . 1 4 . 2 o o 3 ]

kirsti~
krazy MIN ime702: stop giving my girl the ditching virus
- LOL k wtf, I'm not. =[

one of my great my away messages
sicats info for jade:
-one day imma build a place for u and me babe....SICAT'S MANSION
my reply:
hey sicat can you build min and me a mansion? ;D
iLL SicK SicaT: lolz build your own god damn mansion

eddie
Eddie and Vivy want to live at Sicat's Mansion

maynard
Mayo and his hand wan'ts to live in Sicat's Mansion

muhahaha. i love reading everyones info, its so fun .. ok good night fellers!

hmm showering tonight, school was fine. i felt weird knowing that min was always in the back of my head. i fell asleep early but then i woke up to see if min was back online, but he still had his message up. i got through sixth period, understood how to do my work so a tried to do a little. took chanelle home, got my paycheck at home and got neil, went to the bank and ended up back at the mall to see min. i didnt know what to do, i didnt know if he was mad at me or not but i guess he wasnt.

things were ok but he said that he understands that i dont like him as much and that made me feel so low, its like he was sticking words in my mouth and... i didnt mean it that way. the way he expresses his feelings through telling me this and that... i dont talk because it takes me longer for it to go through and out of my mouth. my timings bad and i swear to goodness if it werent for my stupid ass saying i didnt like him as much as he likes me wouldnt have gotten as far as it has. i made him sad and i knew i hurt him but i dont know what i meant. err im confusing myself. min thinks that i was obligated to deny what i said because i made him feel the way he did and aaaaaah, i hate that. i called him when i got home and the second time i ended up crying because it felt like he was joking around and rubbing it in my face that i didnt like him as much.. aarrrg. dont like people seeing or hearing me cry, its so embarassing cause im a looooser. i cant help it, i couldnt take that from him saying that i dont feel the same way he does about me. its planted in his mind now and its my fault. my fucking mouth. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh =((((

i can try playing it off like nothing happens but today, i couldnt. looking at min, with a smile on his face pretending as i if i didnt like him as much as i do. i wanted to cry but it didnt come out till now. eeerrr pointless drama! sorry, stop reading now. stooop reading my weirdo thoughts =( i dont know what to say though. i just.... dont like how things like this can be brought into work, i did it again, i called him and i went to work to visit him. look at all the demeted things i do to get myself into these things, haha. someone needs to slap my head cause im being really reaaally stupid.

grr. showers are good. happy st patricks day btw, not too much luck for me, hope everyone elses went extra swell.

i was thinking a poem would help me understand whats going on, maybe i can understand what im feeling but it doesnt work. its just a sign that soon something wont be right. i cried this morning, and i cried again a while ago, its pathetic. i told myself this year im not going to make a big deal when i know its not. why cry? its not necessary damnit =( im trying to be strong and think positive and so far its been ok, but this weekend was whacked out. i dont know what it was but a lot of things werent right.

enough dumb shit, yesterday after work diana gave me a ride home. nothing else, just talked to min on the phone and ended on a comment that came out the wrong way. im stupid and i dont think about the things i say, probably cause i say it the wrong way? i dont know. grrrr. that was my night, i fell asleep right after.

woke up, got to work early because my dad got mad at me for not being ready. got a shirt at wet seal, min apologized for last night when it was my fault for being such a dumbass.... uugh, so i clocked in early, work was fine. then i went on break and things happened again that shouldnt have. usually im rushing when i go on break because i run around getting food so today i brought some noodles so i wouldnt have to rush, but for some reason i was rushing and min was already off work so i didnt really like him poking me and what not. i guess that got him mad so he just didnt speak to me when i was on my break. i was with him during my break and the last minute i had on break i just left. ... i ran my fingers under water [haha, yea i always go to the bathroom when i get mad for some reason, eh! maybe its the stank smell thatll relieve my stress? or no actually its the water in the sink ... 0__o anyways!] eeeh. i really dont like being upset at work cause im the hyper smiley one when everyone else is stressed and i dont like showing my problems at work, who does you know? its not professional.

we closed, had our meeting. wheeeew it was long! i didnt have much to say, i just wanted to go home and sleep. i hate thinking so im better off starting off a new day and getting today over with. so after the meeting min was fine, i wasnt. now i was acting how he was and he got upset and apologized again. =/ i didnt want to say anything because it didnt matter and i told him during my break if he were to bring it up after that time hed be lying, saying that there was nothing wrong with him since he wasnt talking OR looking at me. i knew something was up cause the way he and i act, were both a little weird or hyper most of the time. i ended up telling him all this and we didnt say anything when i left with kirsti. he just let go of my hand and i just gave this big siiigh when we were walking away. i hate ending things like that. he was like so thats how you solve things?! =( my eyes got watery and i started to branch out with all the dumb things i think about when i get upset... somehow it ends with my sister not being here with me. fucking bullshit.

im stupid. i cant help it, i know he likes me a lot and im... falling for him so hard, its like i want to tell him that i love him. i looove being with him, i love everything about him but somethings holding me back. i want to tell him, that maybe.. err, maybe i shouldnt post it on here! =P its just that i know this isnt a big thing we should be fussing about. so what if we dont have fights? who said it wasnt healthy? its tiny things that get to me, the big things i dont mind. the tiny things in life scare me. its been one month, two days today. the past two nights have ended on a bad note and i want it to stop. its pointless and im sorry for being the way i am, i learn from my actions, i see what i do wrong and i try my best to fix them. i dont like saying sorry if i dont know what i did wrong but its the only thing i can do right now. if not, someone please let me know.

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