2Victoria florentin

went to meadows n took pictures with arnold. after we ate at east star buffet, galleria mall. saw gideon n talked to him until i got home. ate the left overs n fell asleep watching goldmember. we all fell asleep on the couch and went upstairs around eight in the morning. i forgot to blog. woops, no time.

worked from two till nine, got thai bbq n brought it to work, exchanged my express pink shirt into a green one =P say debbie veronica j and victor at work. didnt get out of work until ten fifteen since the machine was down. peter n min were fooling around pretending to be moving... photomania models or something, haha. wasted film on them n twenty minutes after work i ended up at the orleans to see LOTR with neil arnold n min. ate steak n eggs after n got home right now. im tired and i didnt wana forget to blog again tomorrow so im set. tomorrows saturday? i cant believe it. if i were working full time like min and it seems like this every week. id lose track of the days. blah! get phat checks baby. hehe. time to go to bed. bonjour. woops (=

time to go after christmas shopping and take more pictures at work. ugh =P i think.... that boys need to stop being so weird. they make me think too much about things that i dont need to worry about. hey rachel! help me out here, haha. i got plastic now so we can get them leather pants baby! pinpy styyle xD dang. i need to get my ass to some parties n learn how to shake my ass without stopping in five minute intervals. hahaha.

its time for me to curl my hair n go shopping. holla back youngin! ... psssh.

yesterday i got to work ten minutes early so i went n got some gifts wrapped my uncles presents. yes i know the gifts werent as good as how my sister got them for him but hey! i didnt know, i didnt ask the right questions. he wanted decaf. haha. oh well. arnold and neil were tagging along with me yesterday n min got sick, so he went home early. at the end of the night we made eighteen hundred i think? peter got us all sundaes, it was nice of him =) we left to go home, attempted to go to walmart but it closed already. after that arnold n me wrapped gifts for basically everyone. i dropped off jasons gift in front of his house, finished wrapping gifts. left for church at eleven, got there forty minutes before midnight. i saw jen n yea i ended up crying again, my mommy was crying too. i was so tired. but once the choir was singing i woke up. hehe.

we got home, ate that great spinach stuff, prayed for len. we opened gifts cause of neil =P then we fell asleep around three. woke up at one. haha,we ate 'breakfast' n watched goldmember. i just got back up and i was talking to debbie n how we have the same feeling this christmas. not feeling the same without our loved ones that we happened to lose on the same month in november. its ok though, this time of year we think of the happy things, right? the birth of christ, the prince of peace! its so hard to bring to people these days. i think.. that maybe this place on earth really is hell, and that when i meet my sister itll be heaven. i was telling arnold in church, how people and the times have changed, in style n culture. how are you planning on greeting jesus? hes not gona be in jeans or like fat albert you know? lol. i know im being a dork but you know me. or i hope you do =P i think differently. not sure if its a good or bad thing but whatever. i need to get ready to see the tree at sunset park, maybe the forum after? ill catch you later. merry christmas folks.

got back from the steak n eggs. these filipino kids were behind me n they reminded me of keith. i miss that guy.. last time i saw him was last weekend when he was there with his family. when i get a car we need to chill. the drug/smoke free filipino homecoming partners or 01, hehe.

i read rachels xanga and i thought 'damn, i hope i dont rant about stupid shit.' i just.. say what i think. is it stupid? =/ right now people are at chris reids party at the mariot n i really felt bad that i forgot to call him to see if i could go. i thought i was going but i forgot when i got off work. jay said he was going to call me back but im sure he wont remember. any time a boy says hes going to call back you know he wont. eighty-five percent chance at that. i rush myself into everything now and... i actually think its better than going out with my frends now. call me a loner but hey, i dont have to stress about sneaking out or coming up with excuses to tell my parents if i happen to get caught you know? the problems i have arent that bad. its just that i break down cause of this time of the year without len len. other than that im dandy. working takes up a lot of my time even though its weekends, but hey! its break and now i work all the time. haha, its fine with me but i dont like being tired every day. id like to stay home and actually vaccum my room for once in the past month or so but i cant since i have no time. i didnt get to send out xmas cards, wrap my gifts, and i registered for the SAT test in less than an hour before the deadline. pathetic i know, but im getting things done. not exactly the way i wanted it to be but nothings the way it ends up to be. ... blah.

on a more... silly level, i think im crushing. and the funny thing is that i dont usually blog this but its not like im planning on mentioning any names right? (((= woops, thats your bad. i dont have any real close frends to be telling that to so ill somehow end up telling arnold. haha, arnolds gona be like 'ah.. i see. hmm, alright.. anyways!' just kidding. its just that i think this person is questioning me once in a while to see how im doing in my ...personal life i guess? shit. everyone asks about it right? woops. pssh :P someones trippin. haha, its me its mee! i wont let it get to me too much though, ill go crazy.

i need to sleep. i got less than six hours of sleep now, yeee haw. have a great eve everyone, get all the last minute shopping done before i bust a move on ya! [bad move that is]

jes registered for the SATs. today at work, the customers i dealt with... they need to stop lying n think what they DiDNT say. punkasses.

i woke up early n did the laundry, ended up wearing lens sweater n jeans. i cried before i took a shower, it sucked. i changed my info a little and wrote a letter to her. oh, we had pizza for lunch too. i think jeff ate my pizza. arnold came here around four n they picked me up. from there i got my presents for my aunt n uncle, neil, and arnold. gideon called me today but i was working, he said his mom kicked him out of work? ::shrug:: victor said he was gona stop by work but he i didnt see him. i think were eating steak and eggs later when my mom gets off, so just read what i wrote my sister. have a great christmas eve folks. night.

dear len len,
its hard to believe youre not with me this time of the year, or any after this. youre testing me to see that even through the hardest time of the year i can go on without you by my side, physically. youre the BEST sister i could ever ask for. its hard not to cry every time i think about you. i miss you soo much. i know we had something nobody ever had, and its planted inside of my heart and soul. youll be with me forever. mommy said you mightve turned into an angel, but i know you were one all along. i love you so much len. tell everyone up there i say merry xmas and take care of us here on earth.

lots of stuff happened yesterday. woke up, shower, work. saw west veronica angela hectors parents =P pat allison, got off work at eight. parents got me n we went to walgreens, got more cough drops and new chapstick. chilled at home for a little bit then went to see maid in manhattan with min at eleven. ate mcdonalds after that n arrived home at two. fell asleep right away and woke up in time for church. i have two pimples on my forehead. =(

i was planning on figuring out what to get my parents, but mr basa called me up to say that they need help at work so off i go.

oh. i like going to church, but now.. i just have this feeling that i know i dont want to go because ill cry. i cried for a while at church but neither my dad nor brother decided to say anything, they already know why. everyone knows why. so many silly things at church are reminding me of the tiny things in life that i enjoyed with my ate. lately ive been walking around with watery eyes. no alergy, no thoughts are coming to me. its odd. i need to see a psychic, or maybe a therapist. i wana see if theyre actually worth the money. till then ill work.