2Victoria florentin

im DAMN tired from the three hours of sleep had yesterday. just got home from the photomania get together, haha. oh wait it was a party! (= sky blues get me tired. im off to bed, im working in nine hours!

thanks for the bonus, missy elliot [EDiTED?! martha focker!] and dj irene cd, cash, candy, and calendar. cant wait till next year right min? haha. ::sneeze:: im getting sick once again. good morning.

dad picked me up from skool, made christmas cards until chanelle came, left around seven met up shirley and jen at seven fortyish. took pictures without sharlene, ate and it was nine forty. left the mall with two photo booth pictures of abbie chanelle n me. took those kids home and here i am. need to wrap my gift for my seret santa so im out. tomorrows gona be a crazy ass day. grrr!

type out lines for macbeth in word processing, finish checking booklet. pass out christmas cards. bring secret santa gifts and coke for yearbook. test for bentley and mini party again. chillin in sixth and fix senior ad, getting rest before i rush to get to work. work from three till ten, party after at who knows where? sigh. wish me luck kids. my very last day of this year as a high skooler. tsk tsk (=

with all the frends i have, all the laughing and good times i have with them, it sucks knowing that not one of them i can depend on. certain things make me a frend, but i dont have one that i can tell my every secret to. its impossible. i expect too much from one person. im being stubborn, sometimes i just cant except things the way they are. i tell myself that and i move on, but it comes back to me eventually. why cant i just move on and not think about the things that bring me down? it seems like all the problems i have lead me to think of my sister. its not because of her i feel like this, im doing this to myself. i trust a few people, but .... sometimes i feel that its my fault for feeling the way i do. i pull myself into too many things that arent necessary. right when i think things will work out in the end, after all the drama and fucked up things i go through... nothing good is coming out. im trying to be as patient as i can but what is there for me to do when im home alone doing nothing? when im home how can i not pass by my sisters room to see if shes laying down or sleeping when my sisters door is open? i cant deny that shes always in my head.

this whole being a girl and feeling emotion with this monthly cycle kills me. before nobody could tell cause i was always so damn chipper. now im sure everyone knows when im pissed or not myself. ive been like this for a while and im sick of it. i need to get out, i need to keep myself in motion more than before so i wont come back and blog about things like this. somethings nagging on me. im fighting this, i cant break down for my sister. i dont want to be like her when shed stress out. ... ..... now.. that i think about it.. she seemed as if she had nobody to turn to with simple problems. shed call me... id call her. so....err. that means i need to speak up ..maybe? to who though?

i didnt take the asvab with chanelle. woopsie, i didnt feel like waking up earlier than usual.

forgot my cell fone and the notebook chanelle and i write in. grrr, i wrote so much last night too. oh well. before i came to class she gave me some of her new lip gloss and its making my lips feel tingly n pepperminty. haha, not making my eyes burn yet chanelle! i forgot to get my noodles too. guess ill be getting some darn fries.

last week i had about one hundred seventy, and now im down to thirty-five bucks. two or three are going towards my lunch today, grr. then we have after skool with key club. the members better keep quiet cause my throat still hurts and last week i got pretty ticked. immature asians! hehe..

i had taco bell for lunch. after i ate i wrote some christmas cards out to a few people out of state. i noticed i had a crap load of envelopes missig for the cards that i wanted to give this year. hmmm.. i talked to veronica after i ate my little caesars. we talked for a while n thursday ill stop by her work when the rude crew take pictures. after that i changed into my pjs n chung face wanted to go to starbucks.

i changed again, met him at starbucks and it was closed. we hung out at his house n made our own coffee. mm.. tasty! hahaha. jays coffee was gross. mine wasnt that bad since most of it was creamer and sugar, haha. errr. i drank it pretty fast. i left his house twenty minutes ago and here i am. a new person ready to be up for a couple more hours. hehe. that sucks.

plans for tomorrow: key club meeting, possibly start on my christmas shopping [haha, how sad]. oh! and perhaps catch lord of the rings with jay and whoever else ... preferably a driver? ;D

i saw eric today after skool. his hair grew out a bit =P i need to call him so we can catch up on the good stuff we talked about way back when.

moms taking a nap until we pick up neil so after we get him were gona eat someplace... good. and when i get home i shall gather up my things that need to be done this week. christmas cards to shopping cleaning my room and whatever else. ra ra raaa.

" you make my heart sing . . "

hey len, if you can read my mind... would you understand it? cause damn. the things people are telling me right now i dont understand. why now? why are they telling me this ate? i dont understand why some people wont answer me back with a simple answer or at least so that i can understand it, negative or not. grrrr... for a split second i think about something i shouldnt n now its on my ass.

im never going to find this len.. were picky gals i tell ya. ha, were the shit! memphis florentins what?! =) im sure you know what im thinking right now, about guys. when the day comes im sure ill be so happy, for you n me. itll be sooo great.

aaah. my very last monday of the year as a student in high skool. how time flies so quickly. =)

yesterday everything turned out ok, still here with a sore throat, i left my bag of halls at work though. after work steven hector peter jason min n kirsti went off to mandalay bay to eat our yummy buffet. it was good, the waiter was pretty tight. i got home at ten n fell asleep at about midnight. changed my message on my cell. haha, jisuk changed his too. silly chung face. it took me around ten minutes to finally get my message right but i freakin hung up so it ended up not saving, haha. sheesh.

im not sure what else is going on today though, i cant talk much but i dont really wana go out either. its a monday! i really really need to clean up my room and make a list of things that i seriously need to save up money for.

or actually, maybe i should go out today. hahaha, i remember jason clocked us all out for work n i think they said we were gona get paid today. .... or was i dreaming? hahaha. i need more sleep.

uh oh, new fad typing this up in the morning! nyak nyak. today. or yesterday was a very..... active day.

first up, that tree at sunset park it pretty dope. we put red ribbons around it n it says 'stop dui' it was their ninth annual ceremony, every year on the second week of december. it was nice, i ended up crying again but its all good. after that my family ate a wonderful meal at, yeaa! you guessed it— wendys!! hahaha. it was right by work so what the hey, i just got some chilli n brought the rest to work.

speaking of work. we broke the record of all time, weeee! last week we had forty-four hundred. that earned us a pizza for lunch at work. yesterday? fifty-eight. ;DDDD whoaaaaaaaaaa can you believe that?! gosh dang. [you all know im talking in the thousands right? ^__- just making sure] tomorrow after work were gona eat at the mandalay bay buffet. MmMm. see if we had fourty-five thousand, we couldve had a dinner. nope nope, we got a buffett now baby!

after work alvin got me n we met up at the house party. not that many people as the weeks before but i had fun. allison ruth n some hispanic chick were dancing with the guys. tee hee. my thighs hurt like a mother dood. i need to work out n get rid of those five pounds of cheesecake n grossness. dad called me up quarter till two so i went home n snuck back out at two thirty. alvin n i met up at the orleans with keoni megan allison gideon ryan but for some reason i didnt think wed get into the courtyard cafe. [oh yea n i saw jess there, he didnt get to eat either n they were right behind us in line, hahaha. silly j0ff] so went to tea planet but i called up n no answer, but they said the noodle place next to tea planet. i asked 'are you suuure its open?' =P of course it wasnt. all the underaged cats went to jack in the box at durango n flamingo n ate at desert breeze. and booooy was it breezy. haha ::whoosh:: after that we just went home n here i am. slick once again. dangit its five! i need to sleep, im sure ill be up in another four hours for church or work. ill let you know of course how everything goes ok? carrots.

woops! i meant peas. [haha. i cant help it, im a silly gal!]