2Victoria florentin

i told you! i knew i was gona be sick, and i knew i was getting my rag. hahaha. and i knew rachel was at church! weeee. and i can predict ::puts fingers on temples:: that i will be tired when i get off my eight hour shift tonight! hehe.

yesterday i woke up at seven thirty n slowly got off my ass. i woke up at three in the morning to get some water to somewhat help my disgusting throat but that didnt help. so i stayed home.. felt really slow n weak along with my throat. gideon came by to drop off some cough drops for me. thanks dood =P uuuh, yea then i took a shower n went to gideons house to chill.. chill? haha. i didnt do anything. i went to the galleria and keoni n ryan came by to get me. then junos to watch andrew yim clean out stuff ;D left there at about seven something n off to jackies. we watched blair witch two n keoni n ryan came back with key club [woops, i mean alvin ric ben roi ralph and the other guys] at nine i think? eh. i lost track of time. from there i just went with ryan n he dropped of jay n me.*

when i got home i figured my dad called me to see what time id be home cause he went to the orleans. ha, they came home at midnight i think? from the time i got home till then i was on the fone with mikail n zeph. aah the good times when i talked to them waay back when. (=

and here i am at this very moment at jsut about nine twenty-five, still with this wet towel over my head. i need to get ready. dont want daddy yelling at me today. nope nope. im off to sunset park, maybe some lunch then im off to work! perhaps ill join them college kids tonight for that silly house party but ill see. more posting later h0mies.

im stupid =( i know i did something i wasnt suppose to do n i know my parents are disappointed in me. im sick and im still out. ... im sorry mommy n daddy. me doing something dumb especially at this time, grrr. the one day when im not busy is the day im sick. im suppose to be resting and i chose to go out and get into more trouble. wonderful.

you know how people say nobodys perfect? i should go find my perfect frend that i can go to at times like these. nobody wants to hear my shit. frends say theyll be there but when the time comes they have nothing to say because its part of the package, part of the script, you know? frends are suppose to be there, but most of the time they have nothing in reply. nobody really can help you. you learn from experience n for me im learning on my own. seeing what its like to be by myself. literally. there really is NOBODY that i can tell absolutely everything about. and if there was then itd be my sister cause ... shes sister. and i guess it is true that you dont know what you have until youve lost it. i think whoever came up with that quote should.. grrrr. it gets me mad that god chose my sister. its ok with me to be angry for it but everything happens for a reason. ugh, im using so many sayings now.

my throat hurts, im getting cranky all the time now since i have nothing to do anymore. i have no time, all i do is take pictures. im hurting everywhere. slowly i get tired, sleepy, my back aches, now my throat. watch me get sick. im gona get my period, i swear to goodness i hate it when i type so fast like how i am now n rant about the stupid problems i have in my weird life. this crap comes n goes but damnit, why cant its leave me alone already? ive been through enough shit for the past few weeks. leeeave me alooone!

i still get watery eyes thinking about my sister. i dont cry as hard anymore, but i still cry. its so hard to think that shes gone. i miss you len, and i hate this whole holiday season and being on earth without you. theres so many things len, i wana tell you everything so bad. in person. i wana touch you. i miss fixing your hair len, i wana make it perfect, like all the other times when id screw up n you wouldnt care. i never got to color it the way i wanted you to look. i look at the pictures you took as a baby.. you were so fucking cute, being the first baby you had everything, and you have the boyfrend that made you so happy....

i didnt know you were home last friday, sorry =P i was looking at the container you were in n daddy told me you were in there, haha. i was like 'hey whats up?!?' neil was wondering why the ashes werent black. hes a nerd. i never got a piece of your long black hair. its ok though... a few weeks ago mr thompson showed his class this thing about the myans predicting the world will end on december 23, 2012.. thats a sunday. thats ten years girlie. i got ten years to make my life the worth while until i see you again. isnt that weird? ONLY ten years? haha. oh well.

i was talking to chanelle earlier in yearbook when i was looking at pictures to put on my senior ads n my eyes got watery. then on the way to take pictures of the bball game i started crying. errr. i had to walk around spanish ridge! we just finished praying for you, did you hear us? sorry if i sounded kinda monotone. yesterday i started crying too when we were praying for you. i was like darnit! i didnt know i could still cry, aah.

yesterday i left after lunch n got some jack in the box. gideon came by n i fell asleep watching tv at his house. he took me home after he got young n when daddy got home we got some baja fresh. they changed the menu 0___o after that, uuh. i think i was online till then converting n scanning pictures that people gave me over the week. i fell asleep pretty early, eleven i think?

this morning i actually wasnt late for class, but the key club meeting was weird. lots of people were being stupid n not listening. they picked the nominees fer the pageant; ralph n antonette won. i still need to think of themes since most of the key clubbers were dazing off. punkasses.

alvin n me chilled after the meeting n got some boba, then went to look around in the fashion show mall. it was so funny cause the chicks at victorias secret kept on trying to sell me this crap. blaaah! silly ladies. alvin n me couldnt stop laughing. it was nice though, chillin with alvin. he didnt have stunt team practice so we got to talk n get to know each other better. hes a real sweet kid.

maaan i missed another day! blah. yesterday i went with ryan to wendys n there was some italian dood trying to sell some jackets. ... haha, that was stupid. anyway gideon came by so i could finish watching queen of the damned. i guess gideon got bored n he fell asleep, n by the end of the movie he ended up sleeping on my lap. o__0

after that i watched maybe forty-five minutes of oh my goddess. gideon took me home n i took a nap until min called me up to tell me when jason was coming to get me to decorate photomania. we went to walmart n target to get some decor, then peter n alita came later on at photomania. we decorated everything pretty good, we just need to get some boxes to wrap so the little kids wont jank up our stuff under the signs by the window.

so many things that i need right now. i dont have time to do the things i need =/

yesterday i woke up around noon n ate some cheesecake. after that i showered n went to work. my first eight hour shift. i met jeff, that crazy seventeen year old who got his g.e.d., haha. we got his ass good yesterday =) im glad im not such a newbie anymore, haha. anyway clark n sierra vistas sadies were yesterday, we almost made four n a half grand. isnt that crazy?? and i got rid of the void min n me did, muhaha.

joy n doreen got me pinoy pinay n some boba. i didnt get to eat it till i got off work. guuuh. we went home n i took a tiny nap, but if i didnt i think we wouldve been at that house party, woooo! joy fell asleep too but its all good, resting is always better.

im up early since i have a meeting at starbucks at seven thirty. i work at ten till six, so maybe i can go shopping for shoes n get my jeans before everything closes. aahh, time to get ready.